Free Fallin'

So I have gotten myself a few days behind on posts, as time slowly slips away through the cracks. I do not know where I left off, but somewhere between an endless day of airport on Saturday to make my way back to college (which does seem like such a waste of time, until you compare it to the days of horse-drawn carriages and start to appreciate the one day of travel) and now, I think lost my mind or something of the sort. Maybe it is the fresh spring air that has me all hyped up or it could be the fact that time once again seems to be running short and I will be finishing my first year of college in only six weeks. I do not know what to think of that, I am always so excited about the future, what it will bring and I always have high expectations. The optimist in me. But there is always the part of me that lives moment to moment, excited about each step of the way.

It is crazy what each new step brings. The ups and downs, the excitement, the exchange of opinions, values, looks... and every once and a while, one might catch you. Maybe that is where this new twist in my life originates. That moment where everything escapes your mind and the next everything falls right back to where it started. And you wonder did he feel it too? Then nerves kick in and everything feels so strange.

Well I went to the John Mayer concert last night, it was wonderful. Lost my phone again, luckily a lady recovered it in her purse today where she had put it last after the concert because she has the same one and thought that it was hers when she found it on the floor. She will return it to me tomorrow, however, another day without a phone will certainly be rough. I did not realize how much I relied on it until last night when I was no longer with anyone and then went to set my alarm and had no way of insuring that I would wake up for my 8:00 class. I went into panic mode about my phone being lost at 5:30 this morning when I realized that anybody could have it and could be doing anything with it such as manipulating text conversations with people that I knew. My heart started rushing and I had to calm myself down by telling myself that I had no control over the situation and there was absolutely no reason to stress when the matter was completely out of reach. Luckily the women was very nice, we had a sweet little Southern chat about college and what I was interested in studying. That was just a simple little reminder that there is no reason to worry about things that are out of your hands. Let it be.